here I am
facing the world
with bare hands
and open wounds
I stare
at the ones
I left
to run
I think of
my hopes
and dreams
and I reach out
to touch
to have
and to hold
to love
And I wonder
where did I go wrong
where did I go right
I never saw myself as strong
but I’m still here, putting up a fight
Skinny
All I can think of
is skinny
Everywhere I look
I see you
Skinny
It resounds in my head
chaos, everywhere
I know I shouldn’t but I still care
Skinny
Where are you now?
I bend over backwards
still you’ve left me somehow
Skinny
I miss you
how could you leave me this way?
Skinny
I love you
but I hate you
you leave me confused
Skinny
I miss…
I want…
I need..
I have…
I must be…
Skinny
Purging
Was my way
Of dealing with life
The world outside
It gave me comfort
Emotions trown out
peace and control
Inside my self-doubt
A rush
Of happiness
Knowing I shouldn’t
But I did it anyway
But in time
It lost it’s meaning
It was just a habbit
I was addicted
To the lightheadedness
And the numbness that followed
Consumed and empty
Or just hollow
And now, I’ve stopped
And freedom kicked in
But emotions overload
And it sure isn’t easier without
But distroying my body
Inside and out
Isn’t the answer
Not the way to live life
So, here I am
Trying to cope
With everything I kept locked away
With everything I purged out
A part of me wants back in
On that visious circel
But my heart screams and shouts
That it wouldn’t fix me
With chaos is my head
I fight again
To the urge, the rush
Against life
And the way I’ve lived it
Battles are lost
Friends gone away
All the trouble you’ve cost
Yet you are here to stay
Compromises made
No longer in grey
I was there, standing in your shade
Thinking I’d be oke
Now the black is turning white
And my mask is coming off
No need to hide
With love in my heart
I step out of the pain
On my way to a new start
For now I stand out of the rain
One day she will
Understand the struggle
And the barricades
She had to overcome
One day she will
Know that being scared
Means that there is still
Something to loose
One day she will
No longer need the pain
To comfort her
in her own little world
One day she will
See life and it’s mysterious ways
She’d smile
Cause she’s been through it all
One day she will
Laugh
Knowing that what doesn’t kill you
Makes you stronger
One day she will
Love the person
She became
Knowing it was a long way
One day she walks the line
Of life
With a smile
Because she no longer has to hide
From herself
Because she’s been
Through it all
Take one step at the time
One bite
One breath
Look fear in the face
Straight ahead
Take fate by the hand
And walk the lines
Of life
After the fall you will stand
Be the one you never thought you could be
As you dry your eyes
Don’t hold back on life, love
See the truth behind the lies
As if you have a choice
The rain will fall
As the sun turns her back
And trough it all
You’ll be there
Standing tall
Embrace life as it comes
Before it’s too late
The pain you feel, it numbs
So get up while you can
Some times when life hits you
It hits you hard
How can you enjoy yourself
When you’re always ending right where you start
You should be able to celebrate life
And live it to the fullest
Don’t let fear hold you back
Let it be your drive
A drive to keep fighting
against and for yourself
No more hiding
There will be a brighter day
So here I stand
Astranged but safe
What is broken will be mend
One sweet day