Anorexia gedichten & Boulimia gedichten

It hurts like a failure
To crawl back into
Your armes again

I bend and break
Again and again
There is nothing left of me
What isn’t already yours to take

I hate the way you take control
And move me towards my breaking point
As if I’m just too easy to play
and manipulate

Once again I take a bow for you
Being your perfect little doll and all
When will this play come to an end
Well will I be able to stop this fall

Forever lost
In what was once found
No matter at what cost
I was ana-bound

For all the things she made me say
For all the things she made me do
I never mend to be this way
If only I’d seen the real you

Forever caught in confusion
Forever stuck in my brains way
I lived in an illusion
And I never thought I’d let her stay

For all the hatred and pain
That distroyed me by the mirrors view
There was nothing more to gain
As I layed down, in the destructive armes of you

With pain in the heart
And tears in my eyes
I fell apart
Within your lies

I stood to watch
How you got in
I trusted too much
A window to your sweetest sin

Blinded by faith
Eyes that no longer see
All I could do is wait
For a change in me

And for the courage to look
To overcome
All the pain it took
Must have made me numb

Words of pain
I tell you now
There is nothing more to gain
So please ana, take a bow

Once upon a time
There was a girl
Who wanted to be perfect
In her perfect little world

But she took it to far
And ended up alone
And at war
With herself
And the little voice inside

Telling her not to eat
And not to feel
Holding on meens letting go
On life she cheats

Walls got build up
Sky high
With no one left to make her stop
Unwanted, unloved

She got lost
In perfection
The need to be skinny
Made her loose her direction

Her hopes and dreams
Faded away
They all made room for ana
And she’s here to stay

I try to get a hold
On things
And I try to remember
What once was told

My head is in war
With my heart
Because of losing you
I though I was sure

And now here I sit
Wondering how you got back in
You’ll hurt me more than before
And in this circle I never seem to win

As I try to look and see
The one I once knew
I realise there isn’t
Much left of me

Lost in confusion
Locked with chains
By the unability
To take action
Living in a delusion

Chaos inside the mind
With no pages to turn
Memories left behind
And the doors are shut

Fears form behind these eyes
And the pain is pushed away
Captured inside the mirror
Where I often tend to stay

To look with fear
And hatred
But to hold near
The shattered girl behind the glass

All the thoughts that overload
Drive me to go insane
Lost in confusion
Locked with a chain

Here we are again
Running in circles
Captured by pain
To regret, every now and then

The sadness takes a hold
On me, on life
Forgetting all that is told
And sit in vain

Torn apart
Shattered in pieces
Fighting for and against
A new beginning, a new start

With hurt in my heart
And the unspoken truth on my lips
I got lost
Again